Oh my Addie,
It is possible you will never understand the joy you bring to me. Each morning when I wake you up and sing your good morning song we smile. You are happy to see me, I am happy to see you. How is it possible that while you are just in the next room, and I am only asleep for 5 hours, I manage to miss you during that time.
You are getting “so big.” So independent. So emotional. Every day you learn a new trick, a new face, a new way of getting my attention. Your Grams thinks you are spoiled, I have to say I agree with her. But how can I not spoil you with love and hold you every second of the day? I have so few hours with you between work and school…It’s no wonder I want to hold you. But you, are you and want to explore your new world, you don’t want to be held…unless other people are around, then you want me. Just me. I know by this, you love me.
You have outgrown almost all your clothes. We are now going into the bag of clothes I stored in the back of my closet because I thought you would never fit into them.
Your laugh is quite possibly the best thing I have every heard. I have done some of the strangest things just to hear it. Fortunately, I have your little laugh (and your big laugh) on video and I can watch it everywhere I go.
The world seems to be so exciting to you. It must, you refuse to sleep for more than about 5 hours at a time on most nights. While you are content to sit or lay in your crib and talk to your toys, still I wonder what you saying to them and why you’re not sleeping or even the least bit tired.
Today is Wednesday, and I am in class. I have not seen you since 7:30 this morning. Now, it is almost 9pm. You are asleep I’m sure. I miss you, but I am doing this for us, so you can have a better life, so we can have a better life.
My love, my life, my Addie.
Love, Mom
